A Cold Day in Hell: The Dull Knife Battle, 1876

For a few moments more Donegan continued to gaze reverently over the dozen busted, dry-split headboards, each one bearing a wind-scoured and unreadable name, a good share fallen beneath the deep snow but more leaning precariously at their last stations there in the flaky soil above the gallant roll call of those who had given their all to this high and forbidding land.

“Tell me—the Injins leave this place alone, don’t they, Bill?”

“Yes,” Rowland answered quietly as he reached his horse and rose off the ground. “Place like this is powerful big medicine to the Cheyenne. They’ll go half a day around to keep out of the way of such a place.”

“Smart,” Seamus said as he took up the reins and stuffed a foot in a stirrup, rising to the saddle.

“For the Cheyenne?”

“For any man,” Donegan replied. “Any man what does his best to keep out of death’s way.”

He nudged the big bay into motion beside Rowland, putting behind them the crumbling adobe walls that would not hide the rusting debris of iron stoves and broken wagon wheels, a solitary broken-down wagon box, and a half-burned artillery carriage for a mountain howitzer.

He was venturing back into this hostile wilderness, crossing the milk-pale Powder River as he had times before, again to put his body into the maw of this ten-year-old fight … come here again to this tiny plot of ground to think and pray alone, remembering many faces, knowing very few names of all those who had dreams and hopes and families. For those who had fallen on this consecrated ground, Donegan would always say his prayers as his mother had taught him—to go down upon one knee and to bow his head before the presence of something he could not begin to comprehend, but knew existed just the same.

Although he knew not how God ever allowed one man to set himself against another.

It warmed him this morning, as he and Rowland caught up to the head of the column, to think on his mother again, now especially because he was a parent. Not really having known his father, knowing instead his uncles, who stepped into the breach to try helping raise their sister’s boys. Would Seamus’s own son come to know the feel of his father’s hand at his back when something frightened the youngster, that reassuring touch to let the child know his father was there? Would the boy come to love stroking, pulling, yanking on his father’s beard in loving play? Oh, how he prayed he would have many, many more hours of holding that soft-skinned, sweet-breathed infant against his shoulder, singing the child to sleep with the low, vibrant words of ancient Gaelic melodies and the lowing rhythm of his heartbeat. How he wanted his son to know these things, and pass them on to his own children.

From a huge patch pocket in the mackinaw, Seamus pulled the small amber jar Ben Clark had given him last winter. With his teeth Donegan dragged off his thick mitten and stuffed it under an arm before putting the cork stopper between his teeth and taking it from the jar. Inside he always kept a good supply of bacon tallow. Dipping some on a finger, he lathered it all around his cracked, oozing lips and the inside of his cracked and inflamed nostrils. How it stung! His flesh cried out as he laid on a thick coating of the sticky fat, then licked the fingertip clean, put the jar away in that big pocket, and quickly pulled on his wool mitten.

All the while wondering if any man knew where his grave was going to be. Deciding the not knowing didn’t matter when a man’s time finally arrived.

After an hour on the trail north from the Powder the order came, “Dismount!”

They were going to save what they could of the horses’ strength—especially now that Crook had some idea of where a village was and Mackenzie’s cavalry must be ready.

The soldiers in those eleven troops made no attempt to come out of the saddle as one. This was not parade drill, nor retiring the colors. A few hundred cold, bone-weary men who were anxious for action, ordered to walk beside their mounts for the next half hour until they would be ordered back into the saddle. Such walking by the troopers saved some reservoir of strength in the animals, besides helping the men stay warmer with the exertion as they trudged through the ankle-deep snow beneath the scummy clouds that lowered off the Big Horns.