Leo Tolstoy

Contents

Abbreviations

1 An Ambitious Orphan

2 A Married Genius

3 A Lonely Leader

4 A Fugitive Celebrity

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Acknowledgements

Photo Acknowledgements

Abbreviations

AK

Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina, trans. George Gibian (London and New York, 1995)

AT

Alexandra Tolstoy, Otets. Zhizn’ L’va Tolstogo, 2 vols (New York, 1953)

Ch-Ls

Anton Chekhov, A. P. Polnoe sobranie sochinenii i pisem: Pis’ma v dvenadtsati tomah, 12 vols (Moscow, 1974–83)

CW

Leo Tolstoy, Polnoe sobranie sochinenii

, 90 vols (Moscow, 1928–64)

Ds

Tolstoy’s Diaries, trans. R. F. Christian (London, 1994)

Kuz

Tatiana Kuzminskaya, Moia zhizn’ doma i v Yasnoi Polyane (Tula, 1973)

LNT & AAT

L. N. Tolstoy i A. A. Tolstaya: Perepiska, 1857–1903 (Moscow, 2011)

Ls

Tolstoy’s Letters, ed. and trans. R. F. Christian, 2 vols (New York, 1978)

Mak

Dushan Makovitsky, ‘U Tolstogo, 1904–1910: Yasnopolianskie zapiski’, Literaturnoe nasledstvo, xc/1–4 (1979)

SAT-Ds

Sofia Tolstaya, Dnevniki, 2 vols (Moscow, 1978)

SAT-ML

Sofia Tolstaya, Moia zhizn’, 2 vols (Moscow, 2011)

TP

Leo Tolstoy, Perepiska s russkimi pisateliami

, ed. S. Rozanova, 2 vols (Moscow, 1978)

TSF

Tolstoy’s Short Fiction, trans. Michael Kats (London and New York, 2008)

WP

Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace, trans. George Gibian (London and New York, 1996).

1

An Ambitious Orphan

In May 1878, finishing Anna Karenina and in the early stages of the deepest spiritual crisis he had ever experienced, Tolstoy started drafting his memoirs, which he provisionally called My Life. In one day he wrote several disjointed fragments describing his impressions of certain events from his childhood. He did not complete his memoirs and never returned to these fragments, the first of which was as follows:

Here are my first recollections. I am bound up, I want to free my hands and I cannot do it. I shout and weep and my cries are unpleasant to me, but I cannot stop. There were people bent over me, I do not remember who they were, and it all happened in semi-darkness, but I do remember that there were two of them, they are worried by my cries, but do not unbind me, which I want them to do, and therefore I cry even louder. It seems that for them it is necessary [that I must be bound up], while I know that it is not necessary, and I want to prove it to them and I indulge in crying that repels me, but which is uncontainable. I feel the injustice and cruelty not of people, because they pity me, but of fate and pity for myself. I do not know and shall never know what this was about . . . but it is certain that this was the first and the most powerful impression of my life. And what is memorable is not my cries, or my suffering, but the complex, contradictory nature of the impression. I want freedom, it won’t harm anyone and yet they keep torturing me. They pity me and they tie me up, and I, who needs everything, am weak and they are strong. (CW, XXIII, pp. 469–70)

This episode does not provide material for psychoanalytic speculation. Tolstoy’s ‘first and most powerful impression’ was not extracted from the depths of his subconscious on an analyst’s couch. It is a conscious (re)construction carried out by a fifty-year-old writer. Tolstoy describes himself as a baby, but ‘remembers’ the subtlety and complexity of his lived experience, and the most powerful part of this experience is the feeling of being bound up and unfree. Tolstoy pays special attention to the love and pity shown by the adults towards him, describing their attitude as a kind of cruelty born of care. The infant Tolstoy strives to free himself from this well-intentioned despotism, but is too weak to overcome the power of those who show their concern by not allowing him to move. This struggle was to permeate the author’s entire life right up until his final moments.