Black Chalk

Jack gave Dee a piercing look and the act began anew. ‘And now I see before me a female who goes by the name of Dee, the artsy histrionic one. A twist, I see, for Dee survives her time at Pitt. She had been beaten to the suicide punch, Christina Balfour got there first. They say no one ever remembers who comes second and so Dee was forced to bide her time. And now five hundred poems I see at Dee’s feet, unpublished, for the poems are almost certainly derivative teenage shit. And lots of haikus, no doubt. Yet on she goes unscathed, six hundred, seven. To London she moves and for the BBC doth work. And meanwhile bides her time and thinks about which branch of the arts to favour with her creative brilliance. Time passes. Ten turns round the sun and Dee festers on where we left her, the arts still devoid of her benefaction. Yet then she leaves her job. Yea she leaves and doth marry a lawyer who can support her latest life choice. To write a series of beautiful, groundbreaking and utterly unpublishable novels.’

‘Oh, I do so look forward to that.’

‘Time passes. Ten more turns round the sun and Dee remains very much unpublished. When suddenly at forty Dee changes forever her life’s meagre course. For so many years nothing but rejection until at last she relents and writes a tale about a downtrodden girl working a lowly media job who overcomes the male hegemony, takes over the company, and finds love in the most unlikely of places.’ Jack flung up his hands like fireworks bursting in the sky. ‘Success at last. The novel becomes a best-seller and in record time reaches UK sales of five hundred thousand copies . . . And then, and only then at last, Dee fills up her pockets with stones, walks to the end of her garden path and finally out into the river.’ Jack flung out three final fireworks in front of his eyes. ‘The vapours pass,’ he said.

‘Oh, Jack,’ said Dee, ‘you know me better than I know myself. It’s extraordinary. And I love your use of the five hundred theme, how it comes back to haunt me when at last I sell my soul to the devil of the mainstream. And a suicide just like Virginia Woolf. How did you know that’s how I was planning to go?’

‘Never doubt the powers of Psychic Fucking Sue.’

‘Oh, how I love Psychic Sue. Please, we need more.’

‘Well, I did Chad already.’ said Jack. ‘Life imprisonment for gruesome murder. The victim was obviously Jolyon by the way. A fight broke out between the two of them following a rule dispute during a hard-fought game of snap. Jolyon was –’

‘Don’t even think about doing me, Jack, I’m warning you,’ said Jolyon, laughing.

Jack acquiesced quickly. ‘OK, Jolyon,’ he said, ‘I truly wasn’t planning to predict how, in an ironic twist, Pitt’s most popular student ends up sad and all alone. So just don’t go chucking one of your spanners at me, all right?’

‘There’s only Mark left now,’ said Chad, while Jolyon threw Jack a playfully threatening look.

‘Oh, Mark’s the easiest,’ said Jack.

Mark’s eyes had closed but he opened one of them to peer at Jack suspiciously. ‘Go on then, if you really must,’ he said.

‘Mark, the one who hides his ruthless streak behind sleepy eyes. I see the managing director of the world’s largest and fastest- ever-growing company,’ he said, ‘which Mark started from scratch with only twenty pounds. He worked and worked for twenty-five hours a day zealously back-stabbing his way to the top. His employees call him, among other less complimentary names, Marcus Brutus.’ Jack stroked his globe one last time and finally sat back with his drink.

Mark yawned and closed his eyes again. ‘Yep, you’ve got me pegged,’ he said.

XXIX

XXIX(i) I scribbled some notes late last night during the whisky hours of the night-time that I’d like to share with you now.

I have a number of points I would like to make regarding the narration of this story. And also some questions and thoughts. But first of all let me make one thing clear – when I leave at noon today, I plan to buy for myself a pair of powerful binoculars.

So on to point one. It seems I now have two audiences. The first, my reader. The second, my visitor.

Point two (for my visitor). You should know right away that I have no interest in trapping you in my apartment, I will allow you some time here. I will not return until two o’clock, you have until then. But in exchange for this kindness I expect some answers.

Point three (also for my visitor). Furthermore you may by now have deduced why I intend to buy for myself a pair of binoculars. You may as well come to the rear window right now. Look for a rooftop with a white picket fence. You might also wave to me. Let’s start out on polite terms.

Point four. Breaking into a gentleman’s home is generally considered rather impolite.