Then the idea popped into my mind. I remembered the motif from the second part of Ruthemir’s
In a few days I’m leaving for Athens. I’ve already made all the arrangements. I need a more temperate climate — the physicians agreed with me on that. My mind is sound, but my body is ailing; the tuberculosis never went away. I know I haven’t got much time left. Maybe a couple of years…
A NEW LIFE IN ATHENS
Athens, October 20th, 1922I feel so ensconced in the white city now. I have become accustomed to the warmth brought by the winter sun, the voices of the street vendors, the scent of chrysanthemums and the dust rising from the carriages. I think I’ll fit in just fine here.
My greatest pleasure is, however, to go out in the evenings and get lost in the crowded streets, among the bright shop windows and the characteristic, rhythmic churning of the rubber cart wheels. You must be either ill or mad to stay at home at dusk. No one in this city finds pleasure staying home anymore.The place is poor. It’s apparent from the many beggars on the streets and the amiable elderly men with their tormented violins. But the women here are all well-groomed and elegant with an inexplicable air of true nobility.
I just recalled, without really wanting to, the somehow unjust words that Stefan uttered one day in conversation when he wondered what it would be like to “suddenly find ourselves in the heart of the 20th century, among the most proud and rebellious of the underdeveloped and nearly uncivilised nations of the South” in order to emphasise that the cultural hubs had now moved up North.
And as far as the Greek nation is concerned, I think there is not a more relaxed nation under the Mediterranean sun. Unless everyone is pretending, including my landlady that does everything in her power to help and please me, and the little eight-year-old boy that was late for school so that he could take me all the way to the Herod Atticus Odeon on his own, and didn’t even accept the tip I gave him.
I don’t know about the rest, but I could walk the most remote and secluded streets and districts after midnight, feeling as safe as I would in broad daylight.
Here I’ve met both decent morals and remarkable local culture.These Mediterranean shores are where civilisation was born and I’m proud to live here now. I feel so light in this foreign, but so beloved country among strangers. I’ve now settled just fine in my humble room. The only thing I fear, however, is that I am starting to feel the same weight in my chest again, the one caused by the knowledge of my numbered days.
Wednesday November 2nd, 1922In a foreign country the first few weeks are quite difficult. Everything—the morning, the evening, one’s habits, the way one plans to spend the day—needs to be redefined. I truly believe, though, that with the passage of time things will get better; and I rely on the reassurance of Mr. De La S that he will recommend me to some of his German language students, whom he has in abundance. After my visit to the archaeological school with the recommendation letter from Mr. M., I have every reason to be optimistic.