Fall of Giants

But not tonight. Vladimir yawned, so Grigori stood up and began to rock him, walking up and down, while Katerina talked. She told him about life at the factory, the other tenants in the house, and people he knew. Captain Pinsky was now a lieutenant with the secret police, ferreting out dangerous liberals and democrats. There were thousands of orphaned children on the streets, living by theft and prostitution or dying of starvation and cold. Konstantin, Grigori’s closest friend at the Putilov works, was now a member of the Petrograd Bolshevik Committee. The Vyalov family were the only people getting richer: no matter how bad the shortages were, they could always sell you vodka, caviar, cigarettes, and chocolate. Grigori studied her wide mouth and full lips. It was a joy to watch her talk. She had a determined chin and bold blue eyes, yet to him she always looked vulnerable.

Vladimir fell asleep, lulled by Grigori’s rocking and Katerina’s voice. Grigori carefully put him down in a bed Katerina had improvised in a corner. It was just a sack filled with rags and covered by a blanket, but he curled up on it comfortably and put his thumb in his mouth.

A church clock struck nine, and Katerina said: “What time do you have to be back?”

“At ten,” Grigori said. “I’d better go.”

“Not just yet.” She put her arms around his neck and kissed him.

It was a sweet moment. Her lips on his were soft and mobile. He closed his eyes for a second and inhaled the scent of her skin. Then he pulled away. “This is wrong,” he said.

“Don’t be stupid.”

“You love Lev.”

She looked him in the eye. “I was a peasant girl twenty years old and new to the city. I liked Lev’s smart suits, his cigarettes and vodka, his openhandedness. He was charming and handsome and fun. But now I’m twenty-three and I have a child-and where is Lev?”

Grigori shrugged. “We don’t know.”

“But you’re here.” She stroked his cheek. He knew he should push her away, but he could not. “You pay the rent, and you bring food for my baby,” she said. “Don’t you think I see what a fool I was to love Lev instead of you? Don’t you realize I know better now? Can’t you understand that I’ve learned to love you?”

Grigori stared at her, unable to believe what he had heard.

Those blue eyes stared back at him candidly. “That’s right,” she said. “I love you.”

He groaned, closed his eyes, took her in his arms, and surrendered.

CHAPTER TWENTY – November to December 1916

Ethel Williams anxiously scanned the casualty list in the newspaper. There were several Williamses, but no Corporal William Williams of the Welsh Rifles. With a silent prayer of thanks she folded the paper, handed it to Bernie Leckwith, and put the kettle on for cocoa.

She could not be sure Billy was alive. He might have been killed in the last few days or hours. She was haunted by the memory of Telegram Day in Aberowen, and the women’s faces twisted with fear and grief, faces that would carry forever the cruel marks of the news heard that day. She was ashamed of herself for feeling glad Billy was not among the dead.

The telegrams had kept coming to Aberowen. The battle of the Somme did not end on that first day. Throughout July, August, September, and October the British army threw its young soldiers across no-man’s-land to be mown down by machine guns. Again and again the newspapers hailed a victory, but the telegrams told another story.

Bernie was in Ethel’s kitchen, as he was most evenings. Little Lloyd was fond of “Uncle” Bernie. Usually he sat on Bernie’s lap, and Bernie read aloud to him from the newspaper. The child had little idea what the words meant but he seemed to like it anyway. Tonight, however, Bernie was on edge, for some reason, and paid no attention to Lloyd.

Mildred from upstairs came in carrying a teapot. “Lend us a spoonful of tea, Eth,” she said.

“Help yourself, you know where it is. Do you want a cup of cocoa instead?”

“No, thanks, cocoa makes me fart. Hello, Bernie, how’s the revolution?”

Bernie looked up from the paper, smiling. He liked Mildred. Everyone did. “The revolution is slightly delayed,” he said.

Mildred put tea leaves into her pot. “Any word from Billy?”

“Not lately,” Ethel said. “You?”

“Not for a couple of weeks.”

Ethel picked up the post from the hall floor in the morning, so she knew that Mildred received frequent letters from Billy. Ethel presumed they were love letters: why else would a boy write to his sister’s lodger? Mildred apparently returned Billy’s feelings: she asked regularly for news of him, assuming a casual air that failed to mask her anxiety.

Ethel liked Mildred, but she wondered whether Billy at eighteen was ready to take on a twenty-three-year-old woman and two stepchildren. True, Billy had always been extraordinarily mature and responsible for his age. And he might be a few years older before the war ended. Anyway, all Ethel wanted was for him to come home alive. After that, nothing mattered much.