Katya & The Prince of Siam

Lek, you haven’t thought things through carefully enough. If you had, you would never have suggested such a course of action. And, as I wrote yesterday, I must repeat, if I stay with you I will love you and help you as before on one condition. You must promise me that you won’t conduct a secret affair. If you have to hide something from me, there must be a reason. Your argument that it is to protect me and stop me getting upset, does not seem logical to me. Such secrecy is like a poison and I can’t support it for very long. That she didn’t like coming to our house when I was there for the first time, I can understand. But what about me? And Lek, how did you feel? Why do you only think of her? Can it be possible that all you think of is her happiness?

Lek, you are really torturing me with this. If you have fun with her, then keep her as a friend and let her come to the house. Secret visits between you will kill me. The chauffeurs will talk and if you forbid them it will only make things worse.

I don’t understand why you want me to stay with you. You have never said that if I left you would suffer. You say you don’t want a divorce but you don’t say why not. Do you still love me as you did before I went away? Before we make any decisions, which affect not only us two but also our son, we must agree on certain matters. You write that you want your freedom in a way that won’t destroy my peace of mind. But you might as well know that your new plan will certainly destroy me. You must make up your own mind. If you will suffer when I have gone and will regret your decision, then think carefully about all that I have said. But if on the other hand, you will feel happy that you have made the right decision, then so be it.

I will not come home before receiving an answer from you. Everything depends on whether you can accept my conditions or not. I do not object to your being friends, but I do object to a secret liaison and I cannot remain here any longer.

Have you ever concealed anyone’s visits before? No. Or if you have ever disliked anything I have done, why did you not say so?

You always think that I am going to be angry. Is my behaviour so difficult?

If you agree to live as I have suggested, then answer me. If not, what shall we do?